crying meditations:

- throat dilated and hardened into an open ring, tongue quivering free on its stalk like a baby bird tongue 

- intense sharp itch on the foot, on the neck, on the left side of the abdomen, itches layering and getting fiercer, pincers, whole body chained, hard jaw, teeth together

- hot sheets of back-ache, layer under layer, crumpling

- empty flask suddenly opening on the left hand side of the diaphragm, hard shell, filled with cold air 

- brief sharp stomach pain opening into deep jelly wobbles in a quick 2/4 rhythm