last big dream was some kind of reunion with high school friends D & C in a hotel room. told them we were splitting up and then - it was a couple of weeks ago, I don't really remember it now - they said they never liked him, and didn't like me either. Laughing contempt, I was, we were a joke between them. they didn't want me around them. horror that they were doing this to me now. I think I set fire to the hotel. But the dream went on and on, sharp and brutal, twisting on that rejection, like being stabbed with a fork over and over.