We went to the doctor again, got another scan another bloodtest. There on the scan the little dark dot, making its first appearance. Yolk sac, amniotic sac. There it is. And the tests came back good - a nice rise in the HCG since Friday. Despite the spotting that hints something may not be right, it looks like things are all right.

I still have the two futures inside me, that will continue. But I feel a bit easier.

And then Dermot has died. I remember each of the things he said, each like a cutting still waiting to be planted. There's not so much time.