gah. I will spend one more hour on this story. it is slow and trudgy, and the voices don't integrate - the one ponderous and image-saturated, the other sharp and silly and bitter. will a third voice make things better? I want to keep going, I want to just keep going regardless, and give myself an ending.

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to be patient about it, to be curious and listen. that instinct is working, hence the discomfort.